It was spring 2010, my freshman year of college and the year I mastered the art of pretending.
Judging by the smile in this picture no one would know that I secretly carried the weight of not feeling good enough.
I disguised my pain by tacky outfits (nobody asked you to agree), a friendly personality and always keeping busy.
I thought the negative way I felt about myself would vanish after the struggle I had in high school. But in this new territory of tighter jeans and bigger booties, I formed a pressure to perform. To play this act like I had it all together and knew what I wanted.
But I just wanted to be someone. I wanted to be acknowledged, praised and loved.
I never realized that this longing would carry into my adult life after college.
Almost two years after I crossed the stage I found myself back in Dallas, working at a daycare center (my degree was in public relations so yea, not even close), losing close friends, sleeping on an air mattress in my mom’s apartment…pretending. Still pretending that I was okay while life was crushing me on the inside.
I was broke and broken…AS HELL
During those dark and confusing times I realized that the only way I could win at this adulting thing was to surrender con
trol and work on myself from the inside out. So that’s what I did. I found things that made me happy, gave my best to smelly kids, appreciated close family times and stopped stressing about the unknown.
And you know what happened?
Slowly but surely things started to come together.
You see the truth is that:
Just because things don’t go your way in the moment doesn’t mean it isn’t a necessary part of your success story.
Now I’m working at a public relations firm in Las Vegas, single but content, and I finally feel like I’m on the right journey to living life with purpose and passion.
My Glow Up started on that air mattress in my mother’s living room when I decided to change how I saw myself on the inside and out. It started when I made a decision to take control of my thoughts and actions instead of letting life dictate how I felt.It started when I stopped letting a job or people define me. It started when I began to uncover the light that was already placed in me..And this my friend, is what I hope to help you discover too.
Whether working on your finances or uncovering your purpose, The Glow Up is your challenge abandon all you’ve ever known for a pure and authentic life.
We lit. We ready. #letsglow